Falling

Fall is here- naked trees, grey skies, beanies, camo, & parking lot pimpin'.

I find myself looking back at my life just a year ago and I freak out a little bit because so much has happened within the past 10-12 months. Time went by so fast. Dah! It's no joke. Time is no joke. I feel as if the past three months went into super-accelerated mode. I can't even recollect what happened two weeks ago. This makes me sad. Today it hit me again. Like a ton of bricks. (Did I get that saying right?) TIME IS SO PRECIOUS. The most precious thing you can give to a loved one is your time. Time is so important. When I look back on who I've spent the most time with and who I gave my heart the most to... I wish so much that I could say Jesus and my parents. Sadly sadly sadly I can't even say either. I spend so much time on myself and my own priorities that I get consumed by work work work work work work work. And I'm left with nothing but my works. I need to quit being so passive with everything in my life. I've always envied those that are passionate and just so berserk at that one thing. I want to go berserk about sommmeethingg.

Anyways, the main point is I need to begin with generosity. Generosity with my time, money, and heart (compassion). I need to learn to give my time to my parents, my Savior, my friends, and my talents. I've been so childish/senseless with my decisions and my heart/attitude. I always say I need to change this/that about myself, but there's so much to work on that it gets too overwhelming to even begin. Haha sad. So easy and painless to pick out my weaknesses but it's sucha struggle to get in that active mode of striving to become what God wants me to be. Gotta get this ball rollin'.


"You are not loved because of what you have done, you are loved because you exist."- Pastor Joon
Food for thought.

Love,
me.