Disappointed.

There's no pain quite like disappointment. Especially when you are disappointed in yourself. Oh boy does my heart feel heavy and ache in all the wrong (and by that I mean very sensitive) places. I feel as if this year is the year of disappointment and regret. Ha sounds sad. But at the moment I do feel a bit blue. At least that's my favorite color. Yes... the bright side of things during this somber time of my life.

I am making the same mistakes over and over again. Hence my somber state. I know what to do but I choose not to do it because I know it takes far too much effort to even begin. So foolish of me, I know.

It seems as if every Sunday I make new resolutions to become a better person in every area of my life. School, studies, exercise, character, attitude, daughter, friend, etc. BUT the troubling matter is I am still the same ol' me. I don't know where I am going with this but dang, I really want to do my best in everything. Especially school because I don't give an arse.

Anyways, enufff with the blues.

Tomorrow is a new day and also the first day of summer session.
Wahoo! I have hope and faith that things will work out perfectly fine. Although my mind is frazzled and my heart is weakening by the second, I will fight for joy and humble myself to become the best for Him.

Oh be gone disappointment! Away with you.

Please?

Love,
me.