It just is.

I don't know anymore. I'm stuck in a hole of assumptions and planting myself even deeper with my own regrets.

As much as I loathe thinking about the past, I currently lack faith in believing what is to come. So as of now, all I do is just remember. I just remember what was and what I thought would come about. To force myself to let go, in a circumstance I thought was good for me... is so so bitter. I hate thinking about the ending of things. What's worse, is when the ending is so abrupt and forced.

I am bitter at no one. I am bitter at nothing. But it's odd, because I just feel bitterness. I feel the harsh truth, the harsh assumptions, and the harsh departing. Everything just feels harsh.

On top of that, I have a killer midterm in less than two hours. Just lovely :)

I want to be able to say I am thankful in/for all circumstances. But right now, whether it's my lack of faith or the coldness in my heart, I can't help but feel so weak.

God, in the middle of this, help me to only listen to You.