All I have is a promise like a thread.

All I know is, He said He'll come back again.

It's the little things.

Been too busy cramming these last minute assignments, quizzes, and exams before thanksgiving break. Also, before my brother's wedding. What the heck. I know righhhtt? Anyways when I think about all that I have to do within the next 4 weeks I get a headache and I so wish I could just close my eyes and teleport to a deep luscious green forest filled with butterflies, blue streams, and wild brown/chocolate horses. Yeah none of those sound like they can cooperate with the other but in my mind it's super nice haha.

Today, like right now... I really appreciate laughter. It's the best remedy for anything. Aside from Jesus of course. Even though most of my dayss circulate around my school crap (hehe dung), God always manages to give me those special moments of genuine joy. Today I laughed a lot. I will never forget how to laugh. It's very important you know. So if you haven't laughed in the past hour- laugh. I dare ya. Anyways as well as appreciating laughter, I appreciate my friends that laugh with me and at me. Which brings me to another point- God thank you for giving me friends that are strange and amusing and fun and extraordinary.

I really should be studying but I don't want to anymore. I'm sick of you! Oho I will regret this very soon. Who gives an exam on Saturday morning anyways?! Aiyiyiiii :(

I'll end this post with a picture of my teensy-weensy self:

Clapping and errrything ha ha

Share a laugh or a silly photo.

Love love,

me.

Falling

Fall is here- naked trees, grey skies, beanies, camo, & parking lot pimpin'.

I find myself looking back at my life just a year ago and I freak out a little bit because so much has happened within the past 10-12 months. Time went by so fast. Dah! It's no joke. Time is no joke. I feel as if the past three months went into super-accelerated mode. I can't even recollect what happened two weeks ago. This makes me sad. Today it hit me again. Like a ton of bricks. (Did I get that saying right?) TIME IS SO PRECIOUS. The most precious thing you can give to a loved one is your time. Time is so important. When I look back on who I've spent the most time with and who I gave my heart the most to... I wish so much that I could say Jesus and my parents. Sadly sadly sadly I can't even say either. I spend so much time on myself and my own priorities that I get consumed by work work work work work work work. And I'm left with nothing but my works. I need to quit being so passive with everything in my life. I've always envied those that are passionate and just so berserk at that one thing. I want to go berserk about sommmeethingg.

Anyways, the main point is I need to begin with generosity. Generosity with my time, money, and heart (compassion). I need to learn to give my time to my parents, my Savior, my friends, and my talents. I've been so childish/senseless with my decisions and my heart/attitude. I always say I need to change this/that about myself, but there's so much to work on that it gets too overwhelming to even begin. Haha sad. So easy and painless to pick out my weaknesses but it's sucha struggle to get in that active mode of striving to become what God wants me to be. Gotta get this ball rollin'.


"You are not loved because of what you have done, you are loved because you exist."- Pastor Joon
Food for thought.

Love,
me.

May Your eyes find

this heart loyal to You.

It's like

kicking a dead horse.

Snippets

Introducing my Jeffrey Campbell platform sneakers +DIY raffia rope

Arizona summer

Birthday girl

 Unforgettable moments with the girlfriend

I want to pursue horseback riding (seriously... one day thoughh)

Silence and red rocks

Trying something new= braid + bun

The Richard

To-go boba. Great or what?

Once I remember to take my camera out of my car trunk and upload the rest of my photos onto the computer, I shall post more photos. For now, the over due ones shall suffice. 

It's friday night and I am at home with a stomach ache that has left me too uncomfortable to wear clothes and look decent for the night. So for now, I will remain in bed with a good book in hand and the ceiling fan on maximum power. Hehe good night, cheers to a super long weekend ahead of me.

Sincerely,

me

I want a flash mob proposal.

Future husband, please please please..?

Flashmob proposal #1

#2

#3

I'm glad you came.

Unexpected.

There's this peculiar feeling without you here. Or dare I say.... a void (this word sounds so intense)? Such an unpredictable feeling that I almost don't know what to make of it. Not a negative or unacceptable thing but just strange to feel. Anywho, you are a lot more special than you think you are and your presence is important too. So, wherever you are- be you and be super.

sidenote: [ *I have been realizing the significance of friendships lately.* I vow to cherish and care for you my dear friend till death do us a part. Heeeh. May the Lord bless you and grant you all the things your Spirit desires so that you may richly do His good works until the time has come for us all. Love you dude. ]

Sunday is funday indeed. Only because the joy of the Lord is my strength. Therefore, anything is possible with God. Even if our matters seem too big for our hands, God completely perfects all things under His name and in His wonderfulllll (emphasis on the full) love. So yayee and hip hip hooray!

Feeling extra loving and just... DANDY today!

Smiles all around. Love epidemic. :)

Love,

me.

Saturday.

A day well spent with the parents. From the looks of it, I'm sure my parents always assume that I am 90% of the time irritated or bothered by them, but secretly, I wish I could live with my parents forever until their dying day on earth. I know most people my age would love to move out and get away from home but not I. I'm falling in love with my parents. I can finally appreciate the things that used to go unnoticed years before. Of course I have that illness called the "youngest child syndrome" where everything in the household must revolve around moi. Hehe. No, but honestly speaking, I love my parent's devotion to me. Okay, now I am sounding as if I am the only child. I assure you I am not. The other one is on the other side of the country slaving away and building himself a future for his soon-to-be-wi-wi-wi-wife. Anyways, appreciating my parents utmost devotion to me, has allowed me to see God in a different and more warm light. God is perfect. And yes, my parents are very flawed in their own ways, but they are perfect to me as well. So you see, God shared a bit of his perfection upon my parents. Haha so biased. I know. Just saying, I love my parents to death and I cannot wait till they find the same Love I have found.

My pictures always seem to be very reluctant to upload... regardless of the website. I wonder if all of you are familiar with that time of lingering on other sites while checking every 2 seconds to see if something is loading cos' I sure am. Sheesh.

Hereigohereigohereigofinally-

Redondo Beach

This bird was very gross. It was stretching its mouth and swallowing its' head. Doesn't make sense right? Exactly. The image was not pleasant either.

Entertainers. Pretty funny I must saay.

They fish for fish. I fish for men (The Jesus way not the mingling way).

Bibs and crabs and oysters and live shrimp. Something I never will enjoy (allergies hiiyah).

This hombre at Manhattan Beach (lovely spot) caught a sting ray. Over 100lbs.

Manhattan Ave. Love this spot. Cute stores with pretty people. And plenty of volleyball nets.

Waiting for pops outside of Starbucks.

Manhattan Creamery. Super adorable ice cream shop that had all the delectables you can think of. Anyways, my parents went all paparazzi mode on me and took over 50 pictures of me in this store alone. I know all them white folks were shakin' their heads at the Asians snappin' insignificant photos for 15 straight minutes. Le sigh.

Every new place I come across I always try to find a local ice cream shop or coffee shop. Today I chose ice cream. Coffee ice cream that is. Two birds with one stone or what?

Okay this picture sucks because my camera failed me. But there were rows of these darling houses with the most precious frontyards everywhere along the beach street. I wish you could see it for yourself in this photo. I literally thought I was in wonderland :)

Ice cream almost gone. But the beach in full view.

I shall end with this darling little car. It's a FIAT but a special model of some kind. Whoever the owner of this little bobeep of a car is.. then HIGH-FIVE. You are awesome for purchasing this pretty useless car. I'm being totally serious. Useless but super adorable.

Have a sweet night.

Love,

me.

Problems.

Problems are not problems to God. Problems are merely opportunities for Him to show us who He is, and who we are.

Remember that Rainbow.

They left.

Time to leave.

Finding my way.

Things are moving slowly but changing rather rapidly. I don't know. Everything is weird. Haha. Our days are never what we imagined it to be. Instead, it's full of surprises (sadness, pain, change, and failure). Sounds a bit depressing but it's not. Those awful surprises are often the ones that make us right. Right as in.. Righteous. Pain brings healing and also growth. So, therefore, leads us to humility. Yeah I don't know where I am going with this nor do I know much about anything currently (harharr).

The only thing I am certain of is that my ending is Victorious. In the end, I win.

Cheers! Jesus thanks very mucho for overcoming and putting an end to death/sin. So neat and perfect You areee.

Oh also, I think I am finally finding my way. I am finally dreaming. And by that I mean progressing towards my purpose in my life (career wise/Kingdom wise).

"A righteous man falls seven times in a day. But an unrighteous man falls only once."
Food for thought.

Love,
me.

Now, stand up.

Disappointed.

There's no pain quite like disappointment. Especially when you are disappointed in yourself. Oh boy does my heart feel heavy and ache in all the wrong (and by that I mean very sensitive) places. I feel as if this year is the year of disappointment and regret. Ha sounds sad. But at the moment I do feel a bit blue. At least that's my favorite color. Yes... the bright side of things during this somber time of my life.

I am making the same mistakes over and over again. Hence my somber state. I know what to do but I choose not to do it because I know it takes far too much effort to even begin. So foolish of me, I know.

It seems as if every Sunday I make new resolutions to become a better person in every area of my life. School, studies, exercise, character, attitude, daughter, friend, etc. BUT the troubling matter is I am still the same ol' me. I don't know where I am going with this but dang, I really want to do my best in everything. Especially school because I don't give an arse.

Anyways, enufff with the blues.

Tomorrow is a new day and also the first day of summer session.
Wahoo! I have hope and faith that things will work out perfectly fine. Although my mind is frazzled and my heart is weakening by the second, I will fight for joy and humble myself to become the best for Him.

Oh be gone disappointment! Away with you.

Please?

Love,
me.

Devil, not on my watch.

Letting go is the easy part.

It's the moving on that's painful.

Don't ask me what's wrong, ask me what's right.

I have this annoying habit of playing songs I really really enjoy on repeat for the following two weeks. I do it until I know every last word and every dip and low and high and zzziing of the song. When we were younger my brother used to always complain about it and mutter mean things to me but never did I care. I shall continue to spoil myself in this way. Anyways my current annoying habit is stuck on, Carried to the Table by Leeland

I don't know why I am inclined to such sappy/emo Christian songs. But I just love them! 

I need to fix my stock lens or purchase a new one because my hands are bored. iPhone I accept you and you are highly commendable but I must revert to my ol' pal. Hmm... I do think it is time to invest in a new lens. Yay there goes $500+. 

Today was a day of acceptance. Today I have come to accept the way things are. Someone once said, "You are exactly where God wants you to be." I never quite believed that until today. Until I realized I've been working hard to get to where I thought I needed to be, when where I need to be is right here. Right here and right now. Of course there's a great great great part of me that needs restoration and improvement but I will no longer push myself and freak out. I am going to learn to be still. I am going to learn to be like a child and trust in Him. It's odd really because I know all these things and much more in my head but my heart never accepted it. Today I have accepted. Right now I am accepted.

It's something the human mind cannot register fully. We can never understand why we are accepted and how... but we totally are. Completely. It's a beautiful thing you know. It's beautiful to be accepted by The Creator. He accepts me for the way I am. The stupid and bratty girl that I am. 

So many things are changing (excessively at times to the point where I become a mindless nutso).

I always get strangely excited for the next day. Maybe because itsaaa new one and unpredictable as well. Hee I'm so mysterious. Just kidding. Dumb.

Good night. 

You are accepted.

Love,
me.

Happy hump day!

phisshh tail and bright button ups.

The way of love,

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away."

It hurts me so much to know that I was totally oblivious to loving in the most perfect way. Often times when I look back into the past, I see areas in my life where I was undoubtedly senseless in genuinely loving. If only I could go back in time to excuse myself and make amends.
Aye, it's one those "coulda-woulda-shoulda" days.

On the brighter side, today is a beautiful day. Hectic as usual, but nonetheless still beautiful.
Hurrah to Christ.
Hurrah to Love.
Hurrah to Marriage. ( HappyAnniversary to my parents 4/27/85! )


Adieu!

My God.

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup?
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God.

Certainly.

I hate that feeling where I know I should be doing something, but I pretend I don't know any better so I prolong this fakeness until I just become a sloppy mess on the inside.

Quick fixes. Easy-to-do solutions...

WHERE ARE YA?

Those quickies are never within my reach so I do what I don't know with stuff I don't see. O h ye a ah something called faith. Ha. 

Anyways, I'm certain about one thaang at the moment, and one thang only- Consistency.

Ciao for now.

Love,
me.